While at the movies I noticed a family walk into the theater. They walked up the stairs and into their seats. A daughter then a Mom, a son and then another and their Dad all in that order went into a row close to where I was sitting and sat down. Then the sons got up without being asked and moved one seat over so their dad could sit next to their mom. The dad kissed the mom and began talking to one of his sons.
At this moment I realized that I will never have this kind of respect or relationship with my current b friend or his kids. In our family the kids get to pick where they sit and his kids usually surround their dad leaving me on the outskirts. As many times as I have tried to explain my feelings to him it seems to be unimportant. His kids consume every last bit of energy he has, physically and mentally leaving nothing for no one including me...He is an empty shell of a man when they are not around and when they are Im a ghost. There is no level of Im an adult in this relationship too and I should be a part of this and respected. I feel like it leaves me with no hope at all for this relationship and I should just give up and move on. I dont want to do that...and I guess we will see how much I can take before I do fall out of love with him...I just hope it doesnt come to that!
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